Journey

The feeling behind a journey, the excitement that comes along the hope when you are about to vist the one’s you love the most. The journey of love and  hope. The imagination of the good time you about to have. The fun times that will go through history lane.  The tears shed when its time to leave. The heart that hearts whe you leave them back to reality. A journet brings happiness but leaves a broken heart.

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The weekend of a decade

(26/07/2012)

Time in life when you feel at your best with the best people, not just anyone but individuals you wish to have for the rest of life. I had that, I consider myself fortunate and blessed. Absolute fun, happiness and laughter. We all want to live like that but some people are sadly not to get those moments, which is why I had to say something about it, the appreciation and the joy flowing in my veins.

Being with friends is nothing new or rather unlikely, everyone has friends and they do the hanging out, but it depends who do you call friend for the sake of benefiting or for the sake of closure love and security?

These are my type of people I call friends, the ones that I had the best time with:

Khanyiso: my man, friend and brother, I have learnt a lot from you and am still in the verge of getting more. You bring the best out of me, the smile, the tears and a lot more. Considering what I have been through I do not want to go back to the life I lived before I met you.  You always make me feel bigger than my problems and I vouch to do the same. Your heart is very big and I fit perfectly fine, that’s why I always tell you am’ planning to keep you forever. You deserve all that you wish for in life and I pray you may be granted, I love u and it will remain like that for a long run

 

Zeni:  my beautiful, caring and loving sister.  You’re a living proof of real sisterhood; friendship is an understatement of what we have built. I believe you being part of my everyday life has made it easy for me to share all my heartaches, you know me better than everyone else. I do not remember a day having a clash with you, we have differences and preferences but you don’t make them rule in our life. You know exactly how to handle me and my drama. You hold the best part in my life and in my heart. May God bless you in bundles because you are worth it, keep smiling!

Siah: ok whenever you name comes I always laugh because that’s the reflection of you in my life. It means a lot to me, it’s not so long ago that we met but already I feel that you play a big part in my well being.  You have spoken to me in a way that I can rely on you whenever I need an advice or tip, life coach sort of, but anyways you have a way of making my issues  less stressful by showing me the other side of approaching them and they miraculously become  less heavier. Thank you for playing that part in my life and may our friendship grow a lot stronger in time. The laughs, keep them coming, and I will be happy.

 

You all play different important roles in my life. I value you that and yes we had a very beautiful weekend, lets do more of this it will only make us happier!

Dream

When I'm here in your arms I feel love in my heart, I can breathe
Not even pinchin' myself I don't care, I'm with you, you're with me
I never wished on the star when the star ain't got nothing on me
'Cause I can wish you in my dreams.

I think the luckiest girl in the whole wide world could be me
I get be with the one that I love anytime I please
I feel like I can stay forever beyond eternity
Is like I'm where I'm supposed to be.

It took a lot of time just to get to, to be with you baby
And now that I'm here with you I'm gonna take it in, breath you in
And if I'm dreaming let the dream be that I'm awake
'Cause I rather dream about you than be living life without me and you.
You

When I close my eyes I feel like I'm alive
'Cause I can fall asleep knowing that tonight you will be here with me,

Let me know, if this is a dream,
Then I don't wanna know,
'Cause I ain't 'bout to be without you babe, (without you babe) ohh.
Let me know, if this is a dream,
Then I ain't letting go,

'Cause everything I love is about you babe, about you babe
So I rather be a dreamer than waking up with nobody home
If it's the only way to be with you then dreaming you is where I belong

"Beyonce"

Purple clouds

Smiling throughout the day, gazing at this piece of paper that is making me feel extremely happy. I ask myself am I happy or happy?   I am blessed and it’s blissful.  So I take a book try to cover up for my smile, cause am in a public transport and people will wonder if I am mad, well yes madly in love.

Earlier on: Crossing the road and cars are the least in my mind, all I am thinking of is to get myself a cup cake to seal the joy. Could it possible in a week I will be getting the pleasure once again, that long lost feeling of being in purple clouds, well I hope so, in fact I have only step left to the finali.

Oh God I pray hard this not be taken away.  It only makes me look forward to something beautiful, something to dream of. I forget about my problems, I look at his picture and I see hope, I see care importantly I see love, comfort and joy.

I am counting down, I am getting everything I will need, my rooms turns into a fashion aisle, can’t help a girl wanting to impress though I know it’s not important to him but I still feel like I have to do it.

I don’t know what to expect, am scared at the same time, I know it’s not the first time or the second time it’s probably in the thousands but it still feels like the first time.

I want to make a mark I want to leave an everlasting memory something he won’t forget, it doesn’t come easy or cheap, but I found it, unexpectedly and yes it was the right one, at the perfect time.

Young, gifted and independent, and I am glad to call him part of me. My time has come, I must embrace it, each day I live I make it possible to be living it for both of us and give it my best. All my dreams are a heartbeat away, and it’s a week before I reach them.

I have made plans and I am more than I could ever offer, I give you myself, you won my heart, its purple clouds, stars and the moon smiling at me.

I let myself be, I am this way and it’s not about to change, and though I cannot shake the feeling it could be almost not possible. The little details that make a girls dream just another huge fantasy.

 This fact scares the living hell out of me.

Let it not do away with my heart. I think I would not die but die. It could give a mount to the weakness in me. I have more than love and I know my capabilities, it could cause chaos in love.  Am I being the week or he is very strong for my being?  I am not asking for too much and I am not dreaming too big for possibilities, it’s a wish.

 And all wished should be granted.

And my book is wet now because the smile turned into tears.

I need to hold you.

you and me : me and you

Reality sucks

Facing reality is the worst phrase ever, it comes with a lot of changes and sacrifices so ‘facing reality’, reality sucks.

No one ever wants to be told they have to live a certain way and do things differently; in-fact if it was possible we would do whatever we want whenever. But it doesn’t work like that some will always be there to rectify your mistakes or either order you to do it their way.

I know personally and somehow it makes you feel stupid and angry sometimes, but you may never see what they see or understanding their point of view.

Having to correct a small mistake is one thing but to change your lifestyle for someone is something else.

I do not understand people who would expect you to round up your entire existence for them, it’s the same reason we have high rate of suicides, because once you do as they wish they get fed up later in time and while you have done everything for them, now when you reject them they see no reason to live ‘without out you’ they cannot find their independence since you took it, you take their life as well. 

Facing reality who is the cause of death, would you forgive yourself for an indirect murder? What do you think God thinks about you, for interest sake I went through the bible and it says:

 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).

Now for you have partake in ruining Gods plan, how would you feel, I mean have considered why some people kill themselves? 

 It’s the same motive a person decides to tell the whole world about other people’s problems and personal lives. How do you begin to disclose in a social network about what other person does in their own little closet or maybe it’s your assumptions?

Do you even recognise the division and delusions you’re causing or all you wonder and dream about is you being popular for the wrong reasons.

 This situation is worsened when you write people’s names. For Christ sake what’s going on your humanity, why should we all feel that we have been hit by a volcano because you decided to ‘spill the beans’.

People who are our day by day murders are those we laugh with daily, those who destroy our friendship and families in the name of telling the truth. Facing reality honesty is not a 30seconds game it needs you to consider all angles and conditions.

To make state inferior you drag the Lords name in your opinion to the mud, mentioning his name in things that are going to destroy other people live is not what God would intend to do and I do not think you being the ‘mouth piece ‘wanna be’ would make you look any better you just as twice as horrible.

People say I would rather be hurt with the truth than be happy with lies, facing reality we lying to ourselves.

 When you have personal problems deal with them, do not write unnecessary notes.  Nobody was made perfect and no one will ever be.

Why do we have to live happily by demeaning and threatening other people? How do you sleep at night when you know someone might think of homicide because of you?

But what can we really do about that, we just have to accept there are people like that and move on with our lives, pray to God that they may never achieve to whatever evil or dirt they are think.

 But mostly pray for them to see the light and change their manner of doing things. 

For all I can say watch what you are doing you may never who has a cameo and will bring disrepute over your life.

Mark 11:25 And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.”

Everything happens for a reason so they say and it’s all going to be alright they convince themselves, facing reality it things you could be the reason and it will take time to be alright, this is not some fairy world is earth and facing reality it sucks.

Ncumisa U Magadla

Am all dressed up in love

Where does one begin to express feelings when feelings take over life? Is it even possible, still it doesn’t matter he is still my sunshine. Loving someone is one thing, but having him to love you back is something else, it’s a rare feeling, but believe me you it feels awesome.

It happened to me, unexpected and everything happened so fast, couldn’t care less but go with the flow.

 So it happened 9 August 2011, his birthday. It’s funny how you think I must have been his best gift, and I guess 9 is my fortune number.

My lucky charm, my friend, my brother and yes the love of my life. What an effect he has made in my being, I have grown I have learnt in such a short period of time with him, it feels like decades I consider myself double blessed.

One would argue its usually like that the first few months well yes its suppose to be and right now  am focusing on it, future will reveal itself, it doesn’t matter how it turns out, at the moment let me enjoy what I have and proud of.

Funny how the small things we do mean so much to people and live with them forever.  Some people will never understand why I chose him and nobody else, but contrary to belief, we can’t really choose who we love, same happened to me and am happy, easy to smile and easy to cry, it all comes with the package.

We come from different back grounds, I guess that’s what makes us enjoy each other’s company, he’s is from the getto side of world and am from the more ‘indoor’ side infect the only people I ever had was my family, so we are always telling each other memories we have made through that kind of life we have lived , but obviously, mine is always the boring one and I laugh hahahaha.

I am happy and I am so scared, mixed emotions yes it’s a girl thing but this is a life alarming feeling, it comes with a lot of questions and concerns, some of them I cannot even ask, it’s like you do not know when to ask, how to ask incase u might say just the wrong thing, and not being with him is just impossible for now.

Distance came along in the way, “Gosh why now”  where my exact words and it was like that, couldn’t have changed the matter, all  I had to do is to keep it going and convince myself it’s all going to come together one day and beat the game, and certainly we will.

While there are those who have been fortunate in finding the love of their life, there are others who are still searching for that someone special. Whichever category you fall into, the allure of the perfect love life fascinates each of us, and yes I am one of those who have been lucky enough to fall in love with a perfect men.

 Now I have said all the great things but facing reality the story of a love is not important - what is important is that one is capable of love. It is perhaps the only glimpse we are permitted of eternity.

God gives all of us a chance to be loved and cherished this is my chance and I thank Him every day for the person he has given me.

Start living now. Stop saving the good china for that special occasion. Stop withholding your love until that special person materialises. Every day you are alive is a special occasion. Every minute, every breath, is a gift from God.

I am living my life now and with him Khanyiso Tshwaku am loved and safe.

Ncumisa Magadla