Where does one begin to express feelings when feelings take over life? Is it even possible, still it doesn’t matter he is still my sunshine. Loving someone is one thing, but having him to love you back is something else, it’s a rare feeling, but believe me you it feels awesome.
It happened to me, unexpected and everything happened so fast, couldn’t care less but go with the flow.
So it happened 9 August 2011, his birthday. It’s funny how you think I must have been his best gift, and I guess 9 is my fortune number.
My lucky charm, my friend, my brother and yes the love of my life. What an effect he has made in my being, I have grown I have learnt in such a short period of time with him, it feels like decades I consider myself double blessed.
One would argue its usually like that the first few months well yes its suppose to be and right now am focusing on it, future will reveal itself, it doesn’t matter how it turns out, at the moment let me enjoy what I have and proud of.
Funny how the small things we do mean so much to people and live with them forever. Some people will never understand why I chose him and nobody else, but contrary to belief, we can’t really choose who we love, same happened to me and am happy, easy to smile and easy to cry, it all comes with the package.
We come from different back grounds, I guess that’s what makes us enjoy each other’s company, he’s is from the getto side of world and am from the more ‘indoor’ side infect the only people I ever had was my family, so we are always telling each other memories we have made through that kind of life we have lived , but obviously, mine is always the boring one and I laugh hahahaha.
I am happy and I am so scared, mixed emotions yes it’s a girl thing but this is a life alarming feeling, it comes with a lot of questions and concerns, some of them I cannot even ask, it’s like you do not know when to ask, how to ask incase u might say just the wrong thing, and not being with him is just impossible for now.
Distance came along in the way, “Gosh why now” where my exact words and it was like that, couldn’t have changed the matter, all I had to do is to keep it going and convince myself it’s all going to come together one day and beat the game, and certainly we will.
While there are those who have been fortunate in finding the love of their life, there are others who are still searching for that someone special. Whichever category you fall into, the allure of the perfect love life fascinates each of us, and yes I am one of those who have been lucky enough to fall in love with a perfect men.
Now I have said all the great things but facing reality the story of a love is not important - what is important is that one is capable of love. It is perhaps the only glimpse we are permitted of eternity.
God gives all of us a chance to be loved and cherished this is my chance and I thank Him every day for the person he has given me.
Start living now. Stop saving the good china for that special occasion. Stop withholding your love until that special person materialises. Every day you are alive is a special occasion. Every minute, every breath, is a gift from God.
I am living my life now and with him Khanyiso Tshwaku am loved and safe.
Ncumisa Magadla
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