I dare life

It’s not simple when the world seems to turn its back on you, nothing is working for you, you are better off with strangers.  You know what I am going to say this LIFE SUCKS.

 I am asking myself why is all this happening at the same time and why is it  ME supposes to be going through this, but the next person will ask me who will abide the pain if you can’t bear it. And that God has planned this to test me, mara is it not enough now, I get the point now God life is not easy, can you let go now?

 Maybe I should be singing along with Zahara umthwalo wam uyandisinda, for how long am I am suppose to feel like this? For how long should I have sleepless nights, for how long should I stress, if it was possible would go back to my mother’s womb, where there is nothing to be anxious about.

 Am young for Gods sakes, I haven’t matured enough for independence, my mind is NOT  mature enough to pay bills and having to take care of myself. But if I don’t accept then it’s going to be much harder, its best that I have my families support.

 I don’t know what is in store for me, and I guess I cannot predict faith I just have to wait and see, and what slaughter my thoughts  is that I don’t know for how long should I wait, I do  not want to give up but some conditions really murder my self  esteem.

I try to invite other people in my life to feel better but the truth of the matter is when I go to sleep  I will be alone and they won’t be there forever I have to fix my evils, my self  esteem is down I forced to let reality sink in my intelligence. 

What I hate is that I cannot do anything at the moment but that’s impossible I have to do something I just don’t know what is it.

I wish I could unlock my future and see what I am yet to go through, so that I can prepare myself.

I want to reach my destiny 

Godly women

Arise Woman Of God
Rise up O woman of God
In what He has given you
The things God has laid on your heart
Rise up, go forth, and do
Unlock what God has placed within
The potential you have inside
The world is waiting for your release
To expand your wings and fly
Arise in your God-given gifts
For this is your finest hour
Arise in the Lord’s holy might
Ignited and empowered
For God is calling you to come forth
To impact this world for Him
Don’t hold back or limit yourself
Let His power arise within
And take His message to the world
To those that have lost their way
For you can surely make a difference
If you’d hear His voice and obey
You shall be strengthened in the Lord
As you begin to arise
Conquering those doubts that pull you down
And believe who you are in Christ
For you shall surely be transformed
As, in you, God increases more
And become a woman of true excellence
Bringing honour to her Lord

Over 1000km love

“You're making something out of nothing. Whenever I have the time, I chat and I call. I'm at work at the moment and I have work to do. In-between that, I chat and try to make sure that you get my attention. I try to multitask, like I did this morning, and you did not complain and the moment where I have to concentrate on something that is very demanding and could get me into major trouble if I don't do it carefully and properly.

If you think I’m putting you in the backseat, I'm sorry but you need to understand I'm working and I can't be on the network all the time. It’s like you waiting for me to step on your wrong toes but when I do something right and when I make the time, you hardly appreciate it.”

 These were his words when he described how he feels. I am shocked couldn’t say much, am stressed and maybe am not a girlfriend type. 

 Am not sure really how to react or respond to this, I somehow feel like I have been dragged in the mud and there is no water to wash away the dirt. I guess nobody knows how they are till someone tells them, but it’s said that you’re told something that’s going to hurt you.

What should one do after everything that they have done and gave up? Am as lost I don’t know, this so feels like getting someone who  is going to make you feel good it doesn’t matter if it’s for a few moments but at least it’s going to take away the immediate pain. Dealing with it later wouldn’t  hurt as much.

They say:

"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough..."

However not all of us can bear the pain of being in a long distance and yet you are said to be “ not appreciating” how do you know, what about the cold nights, the lonely weekends, the tears and still you  confess your love, and still stick along? How many people out there can put up with the feeling of not knowing who you really with and where you really at? 

That’s more than appreciation and it’s more than love. I do not know what is expected of me and  maybe what I should be or do.

I hate long distance relationships. I don’t know what I have put myself through, I don’t want to regret it, but am having doubts, I have never been good with relationships especially long distance ones. But there is really nothing I can do about it now. Maybe giving up would make life a lot easier but, how do I know what fate has for me, let me wait and see.  

Women changing over years

Women have changed their behavior over years; this includes their dress code, and facial appearance. During the 20th century women had a certain dress code which came due to that religion or culture e.g. a young Xhosa maiden draped with a blanket of a favorite ochre color, and a elaborately beaded gorget.
 Her armbands are of copper and, weaved grasses and beads. A tribal elder warmly wrapped in his blanket daubed his face with white clay. A married woman wears a typical wrap skirt and cloak. The beaded bag is for her smoking accessories. Only married women are permitted to smoke. Rights for women were poor and in some workplaces, they rarely existed. Instead, it was their duty to remain at home and do basic housework as opposed to generating an income. Change came in the form of World War 1, when many jobs were needed to be filled after the men were sent to fight. Once the war finished, many women were unwilling to give up their new-found independence and fought for their right to remain in the workplace.

This has been distorted over new era, women wear cloths that suit their comfort or mood, some show parts of their bodies they can. This has not been the only concern about women changing with time, women had rights and their views were more valued. In the late 90’s women were independent started working and owning their lives. today women have lost their value and  no longer give  good representative of what a women can do , our common label is being cheap, we do not rate our bodies. If you compare most girls now to those of previous years they are worth more than we are now, all we know is to make up and break up. Women are now more accepted into the workplace as people have been able to overcome their discrimination based on gender. This has enabled women to achieve basically any job they want. In the past, this was not so, and everyone is entitled to do anything at their comfort for as long it doesn’t cross ways with the constitution.

What occurred to the dignity of women, why are we allowing time change our morals, should we endure like this?  Can’t you see men are treating us like possessions they somehow own? Why do we let ourselves be so defenseless, why should we fault man for our own mistakes? Are we that desperate?
I do not understand we talk about rights, the same rights that we go about violating, yet we scream rape and abuse. We talk more and do less
We have privileges, let’s make use of them appropriately, and let’s adjust the image that is already out there portraying women.
  This is for us young ladies, particularly if you are religious fixed, let you not be in the midst of sluts nor bitches, but i trust culture will make you a better somebody, it doesn't matter who you are or where you from you are no superior than the person next to you. Hunting after things that won’t last for the next  three years but will affect you for the rest of your life won’t grow you any stronger or bigger, its only degrading not only you but the rest of us as well.
Wait for your chance, God has plans for all of us. Do not wonder patience is sometimes vital. Many of you out there have been involved in things that are no good, but have changed from those, they say the  best teacher is experience but if one person has gone through something and your aware of it, why should you repeat the same thing. I know we are not fools, so let’s not make the game any harder


I am proudly anti-21 century life style.
Make a change and live a simple life

Women changing over years

Women have changed their behavior over years; this includes their dress code, and facial appearance. During the 20th century women had a certain dress code which came due to that religion or culture e.g. a young Xhosa maiden draped with a blanket of a favorite ochre color, and a elaborately beaded gorget.
 Her armbands are of copper and, weaved grasses and beads. A tribal elder warmly wrapped in his blanket daubed his face with white clay. A married woman wears a typical wrap skirt and cloak. The beaded bag is for her smoking accessories. Only married women are permitted to smoke. Rights for women were poor and in some workplaces, they rarely existed. Instead, it was their duty to remain at home and do basic housework as opposed to generating an income. Change came in the form of World War 1, when many jobs were needed to be filled after the men were sent to fight. Once the war finished, many women were unwilling to give up their new-found independence and fought for their right to remain in the workplace.

This has been distorted over new era, women wear cloths that suit their comfort or mood, some show parts of their bodies they can. This has not been the only concern about women changing with time, women had rights and their views were more valued. In the late 90’s women were independent started working and owning their lives. today women have lost their value and  no longer give  good representative of what a women can do , our common label is being cheap, we do not rate our bodies. If you compare most girls now to those of previous years they are worth more than we are now, all we know is to make up and break up. Women are now more accepted into the workplace as people have been able to overcome their discrimination based on gender. This has enabled women to achieve basically any job they want. In the past, this was not so, and everyone is entitled to do anything at their comfort for as long it doesn’t cross ways with the constitution.

What occurred to the dignity of women, why are we allowing time change our morals, should we endure like this?  Can’t you see men are treating us like possessions they somehow own? Why do we let ourselves be so defenseless, why should we fault man for our own mistakes? Are we that desperate?
I do not understand we talk about rights, the same rights that we go about violating, yet we scream rape and abuse. We talk more and do less
We have privileges, let’s make use of them appropriately, and let’s adjust the image that is already out there portraying women.
  This is for us young ladies, particularly if you are religious fixed, let you not be in the midst of sluts nor bitches, but i trust culture will make you a better somebody, it doesn't matter who you are or where you from you are no superior than the person next to you. Hunting after things that won’t last for the next  three years but will affect you for the rest of your life won’t grow you any stronger or bigger, its only degrading not only you but the rest of us as well.
Wait for your chance, God has plans for all of us. Do not wonder patience is sometimes vital. Many of you out there have been involved in things that are no good, but have changed from those, they say the  best teacher is experience but if one person has gone through something and your aware of it, why should you repeat the same thing. I know we are not fools, so let’s not make the game any harder


I am proudly anti-21 century life style.
Make a change and live a simple life

IT FEELS WONDERFUL KNOWING ALL YOUR WORKS IS DONE AND ESPECAILLY ON TIME, I THANK THE PEOPLE I WORK WITH, WE HAVE MADE UP A GOOD TEAM , MAY YOU STAY DEDICATED. LOVE YOU'LL

GROUP FUSION -REFLECTION

Fusion group

Zine fusion was exciting and the enthusiasm was fascinating. The group that I was in was very co-operative, and we worked as a team at all times. Ideas came from everyone, from the layout, to the contend and the design.

There is power in helping one another understand they played a very critical role in the success of a zone. But it has to be real, it cannot simply be an empty promise made at the daily meeting or some lofty words buried deep in the group. It has to be part of the zine - felt, understood and acted upon by those who get it, who like and want to play an active part in it. Facing it we all want to feel like we are contributing to something bigger than ourselves.

We felt that we need each other in order to complete the group's task, that is, we sink or swim together. Positive interdependence was built into the task by jigsawing information, by limiting materials, by having a single team product, through team roles or by randomly selecting one group mate to do something or conduct an interview. It was built into a reward structure by assigning team points based on team averages, on members reaching a predetermined criterion, or on team improvement rather than outright grades.

We felt that they are each accountable for helping to complete the task and for mastering material. We knew that a hitchhiker situation will not be productive. Ways to build in individual accountability included: us take individual questions; each group mate is responsible for a specific portion of the task; each must be able to summaries another's ideas; any of us may be called on at random to answer for the team.

Processing means giving one another the time and procedures to analyze how well the group is functioning and how well are we using the necessary collaborative skills. Processing was individual, team-wide, or at the whole collaborative group level. Examples include: How well did I listen? Did we take turns and include everyone? How could we have coached each other better? How can the class function more smoothly?
The success of the zine was made by understanding our capabilities and how we are well at doing some of the things. Also giving a chance to those who are not good at some things to try them so we can all share equal responsibilities and capabilities. With the help of cutting and pasting we had everyone working because all of us can paste and cut. It was easy working with the group dynamics given because we had a deadline and we made it in time.
Group fusion had a great time working and we never had fights because everyone knew their role and had their job done in time. Time was our “Boss” because if you did not submit in time you would be panelized, in something we had discussed as a group and it worked.