“You're making something out of nothing. Whenever I have the time, I chat and I call. I'm at work at the moment and I have work to do. In-between that, I chat and try to make sure that you get my attention. I try to multitask, like I did this morning, and you did not complain and the moment where I have to concentrate on something that is very demanding and could get me into major trouble if I don't do it carefully and properly.
If you think I’m putting you in the backseat, I'm sorry but you need to understand I'm working and I can't be on the network all the time. It’s like you waiting for me to step on your wrong toes but when I do something right and when I make the time, you hardly appreciate it.”
These were his words when he described how he feels. I am shocked couldn’t say much, am stressed and maybe am not a girlfriend type.
Am not sure really how to react or respond to this, I somehow feel like I have been dragged in the mud and there is no water to wash away the dirt. I guess nobody knows how they are till someone tells them, but it’s said that you’re told something that’s going to hurt you.
What should one do after everything that they have done and gave up? Am as lost I don’t know, this so feels like getting someone who is going to make you feel good it doesn’t matter if it’s for a few moments but at least it’s going to take away the immediate pain. Dealing with it later wouldn’t hurt as much.
They say:
"Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough..."
However not all of us can bear the pain of being in a long distance and yet you are said to be “ not appreciating” how do you know, what about the cold nights, the lonely weekends, the tears and still you confess your love, and still stick along? How many people out there can put up with the feeling of not knowing who you really with and where you really at?
That’s more than appreciation and it’s more than love. I do not know what is expected of me and maybe what I should be or do.
I hate long distance relationships. I don’t know what I have put myself through, I don’t want to regret it, but am having doubts, I have never been good with relationships especially long distance ones. But there is really nothing I can do about it now. Maybe giving up would make life a lot easier but, how do I know what fate has for me, let me wait and see.
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