It’s not simple when the world seems to turn its back on you, nothing is working for you, you are better off with strangers. You know what I am going to say this LIFE SUCKS.
I am asking myself why is all this happening at the same time and why is it ME supposes to be going through this, but the next person will ask me who will abide the pain if you can’t bear it. And that God has planned this to test me, mara is it not enough now, I get the point now God life is not easy, can you let go now?
Maybe I should be singing along with Zahara umthwalo wam uyandisinda, for how long am I am suppose to feel like this? For how long should I have sleepless nights, for how long should I stress, if it was possible would go back to my mother’s womb, where there is nothing to be anxious about.
Am young for Gods sakes, I haven’t matured enough for independence, my mind is NOT mature enough to pay bills and having to take care of myself. But if I don’t accept then it’s going to be much harder, its best that I have my families support.
I don’t know what is in store for me, and I guess I cannot predict faith I just have to wait and see, and what slaughter my thoughts is that I don’t know for how long should I wait, I do not want to give up but some conditions really murder my self esteem.
I try to invite other people in my life to feel better but the truth of the matter is when I go to sleep I will be alone and they won’t be there forever I have to fix my evils, my self esteem is down I forced to let reality sink in my intelligence.
What I hate is that I cannot do anything at the moment but that’s impossible I have to do something I just don’t know what is it.
I wish I could unlock my future and see what I am yet to go through, so that I can prepare myself.
I want to reach my destiny
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