Reality sucks

Facing reality is the worst phrase ever, it comes with a lot of changes and sacrifices so ‘facing reality’, reality sucks.

No one ever wants to be told they have to live a certain way and do things differently; in-fact if it was possible we would do whatever we want whenever. But it doesn’t work like that some will always be there to rectify your mistakes or either order you to do it their way.

I know personally and somehow it makes you feel stupid and angry sometimes, but you may never see what they see or understanding their point of view.

Having to correct a small mistake is one thing but to change your lifestyle for someone is something else.

I do not understand people who would expect you to round up your entire existence for them, it’s the same reason we have high rate of suicides, because once you do as they wish they get fed up later in time and while you have done everything for them, now when you reject them they see no reason to live ‘without out you’ they cannot find their independence since you took it, you take their life as well. 

Facing reality who is the cause of death, would you forgive yourself for an indirect murder? What do you think God thinks about you, for interest sake I went through the bible and it says:

 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future (Jeremiah 29:11).

Now for you have partake in ruining Gods plan, how would you feel, I mean have considered why some people kill themselves? 

 It’s the same motive a person decides to tell the whole world about other people’s problems and personal lives. How do you begin to disclose in a social network about what other person does in their own little closet or maybe it’s your assumptions?

Do you even recognise the division and delusions you’re causing or all you wonder and dream about is you being popular for the wrong reasons.

 This situation is worsened when you write people’s names. For Christ sake what’s going on your humanity, why should we all feel that we have been hit by a volcano because you decided to ‘spill the beans’.

People who are our day by day murders are those we laugh with daily, those who destroy our friendship and families in the name of telling the truth. Facing reality honesty is not a 30seconds game it needs you to consider all angles and conditions.

To make state inferior you drag the Lords name in your opinion to the mud, mentioning his name in things that are going to destroy other people live is not what God would intend to do and I do not think you being the ‘mouth piece ‘wanna be’ would make you look any better you just as twice as horrible.

People say I would rather be hurt with the truth than be happy with lies, facing reality we lying to ourselves.

 When you have personal problems deal with them, do not write unnecessary notes.  Nobody was made perfect and no one will ever be.

Why do we have to live happily by demeaning and threatening other people? How do you sleep at night when you know someone might think of homicide because of you?

But what can we really do about that, we just have to accept there are people like that and move on with our lives, pray to God that they may never achieve to whatever evil or dirt they are think.

 But mostly pray for them to see the light and change their manner of doing things. 

For all I can say watch what you are doing you may never who has a cameo and will bring disrepute over your life.

Mark 11:25 And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses.”

Everything happens for a reason so they say and it’s all going to be alright they convince themselves, facing reality it things you could be the reason and it will take time to be alright, this is not some fairy world is earth and facing reality it sucks.

Ncumisa U Magadla

Am all dressed up in love

Where does one begin to express feelings when feelings take over life? Is it even possible, still it doesn’t matter he is still my sunshine. Loving someone is one thing, but having him to love you back is something else, it’s a rare feeling, but believe me you it feels awesome.

It happened to me, unexpected and everything happened so fast, couldn’t care less but go with the flow.

 So it happened 9 August 2011, his birthday. It’s funny how you think I must have been his best gift, and I guess 9 is my fortune number.

My lucky charm, my friend, my brother and yes the love of my life. What an effect he has made in my being, I have grown I have learnt in such a short period of time with him, it feels like decades I consider myself double blessed.

One would argue its usually like that the first few months well yes its suppose to be and right now  am focusing on it, future will reveal itself, it doesn’t matter how it turns out, at the moment let me enjoy what I have and proud of.

Funny how the small things we do mean so much to people and live with them forever.  Some people will never understand why I chose him and nobody else, but contrary to belief, we can’t really choose who we love, same happened to me and am happy, easy to smile and easy to cry, it all comes with the package.

We come from different back grounds, I guess that’s what makes us enjoy each other’s company, he’s is from the getto side of world and am from the more ‘indoor’ side infect the only people I ever had was my family, so we are always telling each other memories we have made through that kind of life we have lived , but obviously, mine is always the boring one and I laugh hahahaha.

I am happy and I am so scared, mixed emotions yes it’s a girl thing but this is a life alarming feeling, it comes with a lot of questions and concerns, some of them I cannot even ask, it’s like you do not know when to ask, how to ask incase u might say just the wrong thing, and not being with him is just impossible for now.

Distance came along in the way, “Gosh why now”  where my exact words and it was like that, couldn’t have changed the matter, all  I had to do is to keep it going and convince myself it’s all going to come together one day and beat the game, and certainly we will.

While there are those who have been fortunate in finding the love of their life, there are others who are still searching for that someone special. Whichever category you fall into, the allure of the perfect love life fascinates each of us, and yes I am one of those who have been lucky enough to fall in love with a perfect men.

 Now I have said all the great things but facing reality the story of a love is not important - what is important is that one is capable of love. It is perhaps the only glimpse we are permitted of eternity.

God gives all of us a chance to be loved and cherished this is my chance and I thank Him every day for the person he has given me.

Start living now. Stop saving the good china for that special occasion. Stop withholding your love until that special person materialises. Every day you are alive is a special occasion. Every minute, every breath, is a gift from God.

I am living my life now and with him Khanyiso Tshwaku am loved and safe.

Ncumisa Magadla