Sweet melodies

 His voice sounds like a thousand instruments delicately playing a sweet harmony for me. I call it the Benmolidies!

Am caught in-between chocolate and caramel, both sweet and my favourite. Choosing is not my thing and choosing the wrong person would be a hit by a truck….the thought continues every night, as maddening as it I still go both routes, the other one is what I have always sought but only my mind is in it, and the other one was an unexpected but my whole heart is in it, so the BIG Q remains should I follow my heart or mind?

Let’s make it practical I follow the mind, the heart is not there, and that’s sort of ineffective, because I won’t enjoy or maybe put my memory on it. But the good part is it might work if I give it time, but whoa do I have the time?? I don’t know.

Then I follow my heart, my whole compassion is there, (I forget about everything) God. You tell me things and they lock themselves inside; you do things to me that make me miss you when you are not there.

 I pray every day for you, pray you never go away from my life; your smile breaks my smile too. You talk to me and my world unwraps, but it would hurt my pride to tell you how I really feel about you, only because you do not feel the same way I do. 

You're the only image in my mind so I still see you... around where ever I go... And I blame it all in your voice.

My words don’t always come out right but I mean them….Am I insane?

Let me not continue because if I do I always have my eyes filled with tears, if you ask me what are they for, I would probably not have the right answer, I still fall, and it’s all because of your voice.

I do not even know why am writing notes like this, but nothing is stopping me not to, I put the blame  to your voice, it sounds more like  my ears were made to hear whatever you say, I retaliate to my thoughts about that, I cannot take everything you say, that  makes me your emotional victim. I am trying to climb over my heart, but it appears too high…and I blame it on your voice.

Maybe you like it but I don’t know about me, and I blame it all in voice. Because you say enough for both of us, you talk am calm but I fight that, I should remain uniquely vocal too.

If I would say more now I would be trying to convince both you and others that am in love with you, sadly I also do not know how I feel, this little piece of writing is too long to me I don’t know about you but you would also blame it to your voice…. 

Sssshhhh!!! I love you and it’s all because you spoke to me…….YOUR VOICE!